Bloodlust, Bloodlust, for this boy.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-10-27T17:16:00

2007-10-28T00:18:49Z

as i cried and as my heart felt like it was crashing down.... my angel hugged me so tight and told me everything is going to be okay.
at the moment i felt so safe and so warm. if only that lasted forever. if only that last a little while.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-06-22T00:49:00

2007-06-22T07:50:01Z

hurt is an understatement.
dont hang out with someone you still love... when you are trying to fall in love with someone else.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-05-22T23:36:00

2007-05-23T06:40:48Z

Two words I've come to understand and follow in the past couple of months.

Compromise

NOUN:

1.
1. A settlement of differences in which each side makes concessions.
2. The result of such a settlement.

Communication

NOUN:

1. The act of communicating; transmission.
2.
1. The exchange of thoughts, messages, or information, as by speech, signals, writing, or behavior.
2. Interpersonal rapport.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-04-25T15:04:00

2007-04-25T22:04:12Z

I need therapy.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-03-13T00:03:00

2007-03-13T07:04:49Z

In the past week or two, I have learned to love being a girlfriend.
It's a huge plus when you have someone like Eddie. :)

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-03-02T01:29:00

2007-03-02T09:30:26Z

your voice is the only thing that is comforting to me.
in your arms is the only place i feel safe.
but it's not right.

Vday

2007-02-16T03:44:24Z

My Valentines day was amazing!! I'm one happy ladie.

All this was included. I have a wonderful boyfriend. :D

21

2007-01-29T07:17:25Z

my birthday is in 45 minutes and my boyfriend is prolly gonna miss it. it takes 35 mins to get here from his place and he hasnt even left. GAH!!!! haha. ooh well. happy birthday to me! tomorrow will be fun.

Meh.

2007-01-19T06:50:08Z

My friends are stupid. And you can quote me on that.
Your not a good friend if your not there for each other.
Your not a good friend if you dont know what's going on in each others lifes.
Your not a good friend if you dont care.
Your not a good friend if you keep flaking, to do something else.
This does not include Zachary. But it goes for pretty much everyone else.
I need to stop caring about people that dont care about me.
Besides Ruben and Eddie I dont think I've gotten a phone call or hung out with anyone else for the past 2 1/2 weeks or so.
WHATEVE.
I had to go to the ER the other day. I had a spinal tap done to me. That shit is no joke. :( My body has been going crazy but I got a bunch of pills and nonesence so hopefully I'll be feeling better.
Saturday I get time with Eddie. I've gotta last 4 days without him and I must say it's really hard. But I'm almost there. I hate liking someone. It's honestly a pain in the ass because you dont know what's going on and it's way to soon to ask. But i'm hanging in there. He just got online so I'm gonna go talk to him.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2007-01-17T14:39:00

2007-01-17T22:39:41Z

I'm dating Eddie now. ANNNND I'm not dating anyone else. I've decided to try a relationship. He is fucking amazing. :)

Daddy

2006-12-27T00:33:45Z

that's where i get my looks from.

nothing

2006-12-15T09:53:00Z

I feel nothing. Tho I want more of it.
I'm empty, I'm weightless,
I'm not here, but i want to be some where else.
I'm nothing, I'm lost.
and I want more of this feeling.
I don't want to be found,
I'm comfortable, I'm dead.
I'm blank, I'm hollow.
I am not afraid. It's peaceful.
I feel nothing.
~~~~

It's not drugs.. i just feel this way today. bah!

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-12-08T08:54:00

2006-12-08T08:54:10Z

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-12-05T03:17:00

2006-12-05T03:17:58Z

this was fun. and true. thanks lindsay.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-12-02T03:48:00

2006-12-02T03:48:28Z

In 6 days, I have made well over $1200.
Talk your shit now. CUNTS.

brand new

2006-10-29T23:01:24Z

i met someone that i want to take serious. it's the first time in years.
im going to stop dating around and let things with this guy take it's course.
it's the first time im going to let things with matt take a turn.
everything is brand new, but so far it's been amazing.
he is relationship kinda guy. he's been the most wonderful thing to come into my life all year.
in the 2 night's he has stayed with me and the couple times we hung out he hasnt tried anything with me!! i am SOOOOO in love with the fact we have only kissed once and it was just a small kiss goodbye. haha. we just started to hang out this week so to me things are going the way it should.
ooh yeah he's name is josh.

<3

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-10-09T22:16:00

2006-10-10T05:16:52Z

i take it back.
:)
breathing is easy when you love someone.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-10-02T23:42:00

2006-10-03T06:43:18Z

i now want a boyfriend.
i now see matt will never belong to me.
i now think ALL of the guys i date are not for me.
i now hurt.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-09-25T00:01:00

2006-09-25T07:03:05Z

i just found out that one of the guys im dating is 33.
i would have NEVER guess. the oldest i thought was 25-27.
there was no way i would have thought older.
i really dont know if it bugs me or not...
and is it wrong that i now expect more out of him??

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-08-14T23:05:00

2006-08-15T06:06:05Z

I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact your gone.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-06-21T13:48:00

2006-06-21T20:48:59Z

i really am in love.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-06-08T22:23:00

2006-06-09T05:23:45Z

saying goodbye to a lover is hard enough.
saying goodbye to my love is even worse.
i feel like shit.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-06-07T11:56:00

2006-06-07T18:56:14Z

im at a small state of panic.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-06-02T14:07:00

2006-06-02T21:08:13Z

besides maybe 5 people. i think everyone is full of shit.

dirrty_dirrty @ 2006-05-30T01:26:00

2006-05-30T08:27:34Z

why do i even bother?
im in love with someone amazing.
i want him to get me a reason to be faithful...
because i would. and i want to.
these guys dont even come close.

today was wonderful. i love those guys way to much.